In my last post, I was fairly sure my time here in Scotland was coming to an end. It’s been a very stressful time here; I spent about a month staring alternately at the telly or reading copious amounts of Mystrade. (My current coping mechanisms.)
Since I wrote that post, I have made my peace with the entire situation. However, somehow, I was granted a miracle, and my funds were released today.
I have a lot to say about that entire situation as well, but as this is a very public place, I find I need to keep my mouth shut about a lot of what went on in case it comes back and bites me in the arse.
That being said, it is not all sunshine and roses. I have until September to make some serious improvements to my thesis. If these improvements are not made, then I will be asked to withdraw. Like I said above, I’ve made my peace with this situation.
At this point, I lack little confidence in addressing the issues with my thesis. It’s not down to wanting it, it seems to be more along the lines that I seem to have reached the threshold of my intelligence. I do not seem to be able to grasp what is being asked of me. I am working to try to get some private assistance, but am unsure as to where to find such a thing/person. I’m at the point where I can try all I want, and put in a lot of effort and not have anything to show for it. Again, I’ve accepted this and to be honest I am ok with it either way.
If I finally “get it” and am able to continue on and finish, then that’s great. If not, well, then it’s time to rejoin the working world.
So I will be spending this summer trying my hardest to do this, despite the fact that I still feel very unsure about what I am doing.
I am happy that I will have my 40th birthday in London either way. I have that to look forward to at least.
On the running front, I’m injured right now, which is a bit frustrating as I seriously could run out my frustrations right now, but alas that isn’t going to happen right now. My calf pull/pop is better than last week. I did go out yesterday to see, and made it about 2 feet before noping back home. I will try again later this week and see how it goes. In the meantime, lifting and walking are my current workouts du jour.
And here’s a recent picture of Bailey. We’ve had him for a year now.